I dont feel like laughing today

Hello everyone out there in the universe :) Well, this morning finds me brainstorming, well, trying to brainstorm at least. Twin and I need some help! We need some ideas on how to raise some money for this Haiti baby. Like my Twin posted earlier, the advertisement thing didnt work out. Evidently, the "powers that be" dont appreciate you actually being successful at getting people to click on the ads. Whatever. We may start shopping around for a different blog space, but until then, I'll lick my wounds and move on. Chris and Tom are still working on getting officially "matched" with an agency. Once they do, they can go ape crazy with applying for grants. We will be doing another yardsale, on a smaller scale this time, hopefully in the spring.

I'm going to be blunt with you. I havent asked my Twin permission to do this, but I'm going to do it anyway. My Twin telepathy is telling me that she wont mind. My telepathy is rarely wrong. Anyway, we need to start praying BIG. BIG, BIG, HUGE, MONSTER PRAYERS! People, we need 20 grand. Yes, as in 20,000 dollars. Yes, Chris and Tom have already done a great job at raising money, and grants will help, but my prayer is for the whole stinkin thing to be covered. And for it it happen NOW! Is it unrealistic? Yep, sure is. I'm not stupid. And I'm not delusional. I am frustrated however. Frustrated to a level that I didnt know I could reach. This isnt fair people. Its not fair for a family to long for a child like they have. Its not fair that my sister has to wait. Its not fair that they've literally had children ripped out of their arms and sent home. It's not fair and I'm sick of it. Yes, I know my God is sovereign, I know my Gods timing is perfect, I know that I (we) are to remain faithful...but I cannot help but be frustrated and want to know why. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY ORPHANS AND SO MANY FAMILIES THAT WANT THEM?!!! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO DAMN HARD!??? I dont know that I'll ever understand this.

I'm throwing a tantrum and honestly, I dont care. Adoption is beautiful, but it can also be ugly. Today I'm feeling the ugly. I'm feeling it for my sister. This is the hard part about loving someone as much as I love her. What hurts her, hurts me, and vice versa. We cant always take the hurt away from each other, and that makes us hurt even more.

All this to say, we need help in brainstorming ideas on how to raise money. Anything you can think of, please post either on the blog, or on facebook.

Its either we laugh or....I dont feel like laughing today

Angie